I Acknowledge I Need Healing !
Letters To My Father !
Love is still a vague dream !
Touch my soul
Touch my life
With tangible love
Touch the untouched places
valleys and corners
Of my bare soul
Touch my loneliness
Touch my aching heart
Touch my ever flowing tears
Touch my wounds
With tender love
Love is still an alien thing
In my frozen world
Love has not reached
Love has not touched my life
Love has not embraced me
Love is still an intangible thing
Love is still just a vague dream
Just Want To Be Myself !
No prose, no poetry,
No wish, no thought
Just want to breathe
Just want to cry
Or sit in silence
Just want to be myself
And my emotions to bleed
Freely, madly, deeply
At the tip of the ink
God Breaks Us Before Using Us
Many years ago I had read some valuable article with deep insight.. where it was written about the importance of being broken in our Father God’s hand, if we want to be fruitful for God and be used by Him greatly and powerfully we must let Him break us. Cause until we are not broken, until we are not dead to ourselves we can’t be much fruitful He can’t use us that powerful way when we harden ourselves and don’t want to be broken. But it’s a necessary process which we actually want to skip completely or get rid of. Jesus fed more than 5000 people with 5 loaves of bread and 2 pieces of fish..and yet 12 baskets got left over. We know this incident very well since childhood. But we miss one important point here, the process how He does it. When those fish and bread were given to Him, He blesses them, uplifts and surrender them to Father God, then He breaks them and starts giving those blessed, broken pieces of fish and bread.. and we know the story what happens next, more than 5000 people ate full and 12 baskets left over food remained. That’s what He does with us. When we give ourselves to Him, He blesses us and let us to be broken, and in that brokenness, in that process He does most important works within us, He uses us mightily for His purpose
We often fail to understand the purpose of pain, pause, waiting, the presence of suffering and hardships. We just want everything in our life to go smooth and well, all merry, all happy. When the real tests come as giants in our way and block our way, we stumble there.
Cause we are so obsessed with only blessings, success, happiness, prosperity and staying ahead or having name, fame or stay in equal with all around. But we fail to understand that just like our hand prints are unique and we are all different from each other, so does our role, purpose for our life and God’s plan, timetable is different and unique for each of us. It’s a foolishness to compare ourselves with others. We all have unique challenges, tasks and difficulties which are specific and unique to each of us. In the pause, in the waiting, in the wilderness God breaks us, moulds us, prepares us, equips us, trains us, refines us, improves us, corrects us, improves us, transforms us into that shape, image and character which He has designed and planned for us, in the image, in the likeness of Jesus. In the wilderness, in the pause we start to understand the real meaning and depth of His each words which we were just overlooking previously. Yes it is then His living words start speaking life to us.
Yes it is in the fire of affliction He purifies us. In our brokenness we develop a humility and gentleness, a character that is too precious in His eyes. When we are at the bottom of life we learn to depend on Him and learn what is total and complete surrender. When all our roads are blocked and all hope is gone, we learn to trust Him. In our lowest we learn to depend on His strength. Yes He allows us sometimes to experience the lowest of time, He empties us completely, so that we can trust only Him and open our heart, our doors for Him alone and we can give ourselves to Him, entrust our life completely in His hand only. When we think that nobody cares, nobody thinks about us, nobody loves us, nobody sees us. When we think that we are completely left alone and we even wonder about His existence, we question if even God cares about us, does He look us, does He understand.. Does He hear our prayer, our cry? Does He see our pain? Forget about human beings, does even God understand us..? In our darkest times we all might go through such situations, such questions, such loneliness, such hopelessness..! And what we do at such times are really which matter a lot which defines us what we are made of, what our true heart is.
Most times people fail there at this point and lose their track. And this is the crucial time which the Heaven, angels and God witness what really we are! Job lost everything yet He didn’t reject God, he still put his love and trust in God, he remained loyal even in the most painful time. Joseph was betrayed by his brothers, sold as a slave to foreigners and lived so many years as a slave, again he got accused with serious false witness and was prisoned for so many years , got punished for crimes not done. Moses lived 40 years in the desert . Abraham being called the friend of God, by God Himself, he waited so many years to see His promised child.
If Tears Had Some Language
“If tears had some language
And silence had a voice
They would narrate the best of stories
And the most ethereal poetry.”
©Glorry Shubhashree 🍁
Earth Is A Heaven Itself
Earth has everything to excite us ,it’s a heaven itself ..but we don’t realise that and we think heaven is something really different from this world and our heaven means only gold, diamonds, rivers of honey..and all such crazy, greedy expectations..though I don’t deny the richness of heaven .
Have you ever looked at this earth ,this world .. don’t you ever realize it’s heaven itself .! The friendship, the bonds ,the love we share with our family, relatives, friends ,pets ,.. isn’t it so divine ..! Are they not the wingless earth angels ! Do they not carry an essence of heaven !
The rich verdant fields ,the white clouds spread across the vast blue sky playing with the sun the hide and seek , the hills and mountains of mystery and treasures, the colourful rainbow embracing the sky, the ocean waves dancing with the rise and fall of the tides , the dawn and dusk echoing with the birds song ,and the sky playing the festival of colours ..!
Are they not the view of heaven ,are they not divine ..! What more beauty and miracle you expect heaven to be oh greedy man .If you are not happy with this earth and it’s majestic beauty doesn’t appeal you ..I don’t know what will !
.( My own photography )
On Inequality And Discrimination
Its a natural tendency and birthright of every person and any person to love, admire, respect and preserve his motherland, his ethnicity, his race, and to whatever particular group or identity he belongs. And it hurts, really hurts a lot, when he is mocked, insulted or looked down by others or treated lowly because of his identity and the ethnicity or group. That’s really painful and sad. That pain only he can know who goes through that.
In our society, in our country, and most probably in world since long such discriminations are prevalent, and people are divided in many groups and subgroups according to that, where some particular group thinks they are superior to others and those who are considered the lowest in that, they are treated badly and lowly everywhere, in every field, in everything. So when some particular groups think they are superior, so what about the others ? Are they not human beings ?
Whatever identity or group a person belong, why another group would look down on them or tease, mock or insult them ? Can they themselves tolerate that ? Can any one tolerate that ? Then why so easily people hurt, tease, insult, mock others for their very identity ? Have we ever considered it staying in their shoes who go through all this, who have to survive n fight for their own rights and identity ? So painful, so hurting it is !! Nobody has any right for that and why should a person tolerate that. Why some will rule like kings and why some will suffer like slaves and treated like animals or subhumans.
Also I have a question for everyone ? Does God give knowledge, wisdom, talents, ability only to a particular group of people and doesn’t give to others. Does He do discrimination in that ? I mean to say is it only a particular group or section of people are blessed with knowledge, wisdom, talents, skills and abilities ? And is it some group or section are always poor, backwards and fools with no talents, no skill, no abilities ? These are some thought provoking thoughts of mine which arise in me as a common sense. We know it very well that everyone is gifted differently with different talents and abilities, we can’t judge or reject someone’s ability as a generalization, insulting a complete group.
No one is inferior and no one is superior to anyone… So is our groups, and ethnicity, none is superior nor inferior, instead we are all unique whatever n however we are. We all are equally loved by God. We all have same, flesh, heart, bone and blood. Our skin color, height, figure, hair may differ but can we deny that beneath the skin we feel the same, think the same and we all go through this same life of joy and sorrow..! We are human and humanity is our first identity. We are to respect each other, help and cooperate each other. I don’t support too much pride and arrogance for our own group and hating others or to look down others.
Everyone has a self respect, everyone has a heart, every one has his dignity, every one has equal rights.
True education is not what degree, certificate or qualifications we have, in what school, college or university we went for study, what great job we do, how much books we have read or whatever places we have gone. A piece of paper doesn’t measure our true education. True education is how we treat another person, how we value and respect others, how we understand others.. True education is our manners, behaviors and thoughts. If we don’t know how to respect others, if we are full of arrogance and pride, if we are not kind and considerate towards others we are not educated in true sense..and all our years of learning is just in vain.
And another thing… When some people have more resource of something, they should share that with others who are deprived of that. When we find some people in extreme struggles or difficulties, and if we are blessed with everything, if we have power and capacity to help we should definitely help. If we are aware and know very well how some particular people are suffering for their basic rights and survival , and still if we just ignore and close our eyes to them its not true humanity. We are to support, help and nurture each other and to live in harmony. That’s how a beautiful society is made, and that’s how there lies unity in diversity, when or where no one is looked down, no one is neglected, no one is hurt, but all are respected and treated equally.
Just like a jungle full of diverse animals and plants enriches it, so does a diverse social groups in a nation enriches its society. So that inequality or diversity is to be celebrated in good way to enrich each other not to kill, cut or scratch each other as if we are animals or enemies of each other. We are all human, children of one God, God who rules in love, we all come under that one blanket of love, why do we pester each other to generate hatred and divide our society, our humanity for insignificant things.
Finally.. nobody has any right to make anyone feel inferior or worthless only because of their particular identity. Whoever displays such inhuman, illiterate behavior to mock, tease or hurt anyone or keeps such thoughts shows his own lack of education and underdeveloped mentality. When we can’t bear, share or lessen someone’s agony, why to throw salt in their wounds by making them feel more miserable, helpless and bitter.. only to reduce their faith and hope in humanity and equality .
A person’s true power is in helping a weak, not in boasting in his own power and threatening the weak.
©Glorry Shubhashree 🌼
Some original thoughts of mine. . I often ponder over this.. My intention is not to hurt or provoke anyone, but to make us think before we behave or speak anything ill towards any fellow human being which is derogatory to that person’s dignity and self respect.
True love doesn’t change with time, situation, place or people. It never fades away, never loses its charm, it’s passion, it’s devotion. It doesn’t get cold but renews daily. It never doubts, it always trusts, it always believes the soul which it loves.. because it doesn’t only see from eyes, doesn’t hear from only ears, but sees from heart, hears from soul deep down. It walks with faith… faith which nothing can shake..
It never harms nor tries to hurt or wound the soul it loves… But tries its best to keep that soul most safe, most secure, most happy. Nurtures it with utmost care, deepest love, understanding, most sincerity and truth. Creates the most suitable environment for it, so it can grow in every direction and blossom in its true beauty. It tries the best that nothing can ever harm or hurt the soul it loves.
It never leaves nor goes away from that very soul. It can never go away leaving that dearest soul alone, but stays with it in the deepest darkness, in worst storms, in lonely roads, in rough times. It doesn’t seek what it will get from that one, but it only keeps searching the needs of that one in this very moment… what’s most important and best for that one.
It doesn’t care for the hurt, wound, pain risks or difficulty which itself may go through in that process of caring that other soul. It stays most faithful to that soul, in everything, in every situation, in every place as long as it lives.
True love gives wings to the soul which it loves. Creates the platform for both to grow fully in their spiritual beauty, maturity and height as a unique person which God has created them really..!!!
It can’t see any other person in the place of that dearest one. Because its full attention, devotion and happiness always remains to that only one. Nothing and nobody can divert that attention or devotion, how much others may try..!!!!
We keep falling in love so many times, in so many ways, only with that soul as we keep discovering that soul more and more deeply with time…!! There may be thousands of beautiful souls around us… But the beauty of only that soul keeps holding our soul, heart, mind and attention.