Healing Takes Time !

Healing
Healing takes time
And our heart continues to bleed
Deep red rivers through our vines
It does take time
Weeks, months and years
Tears still fall and fall
Human heart is fragile
More brittle than glass
When it’s hurt and when it cries
Centuries of time shivers in pain
What do you think of human heart ?
Iron, stone, diamond or gold ?
Do you think it’s icy cold ?
It’s an active volcano
Erupting with pain and emotions untold


Human heart the most precious thing
So precious that even God wants it
And deeply desires 
It’s the home where God wants to dwell
Yet  our hearts so miserable and broken
Every corner every deep
Filled wth chaos, cries and shrieks
Brutally killed, withered and lifeless
So deeply wounded, so badly butchered
There is hardly any hope
There is hardly any life left in our poor little heart
Yeah healing takes time
Perhaps decades, perhaps centuries
Perhaps lifetime, perhaps eternity.


Human heart the most precious thing
You ever get to  possess
Never play with it ,never put it on fire
Never test it, never experiment it
Never disrespect, never mistreat it
Never throw away nor kick it
Never hurt, never smother, never squeeze or wring it
Never break it’s bones, never pluck its wings ruthlessly


It’s not a toy , not a thing to experiment
It’s the most precious thing designed by God
He looks our naked heart
And He hears our every cry
He sees our heart
He sees every tear drop falling from it
He collects those tears
He holds our heart in His palm
He cries when a human heart dies
He cries when our heart  cries 
He is the one who touches and  heals it.

I Acknowledge I Need Healing !

For a long time I have been hurt . For really long I am completely broken and crushed. For so long I have been putting all my strength and energy and so much draining myself but all I I have been receiving is more pain, more hurts, more frustrations, more disappointments, more tests of my patience. The letters, poems and songs I have written out of my pain are endless in number but I keep those all to myself and don’t share. For long I have even stopped writing and I am not even in touch with my own self ,all I feel is only pain , emptiness, drained and exhaustion. I feel speechless and unable to utter a word.

But this great truth and need I have been ignoring that I need healing , I need to live now for myself and give myself that time, space, care and everything which will allow me to hug my own heart and soul ,which will allow me to let my bleeding heart breathe . I need to express myself and accept my true condition without trying to ignore it . I must accept I need healing, I need love and I am really weak, tired and vulnerable. I am so broken I can’t help myself not crying. I can’t help myself not feeling so empty and lonely.

I can’t hide my pain and hurts. I can’t forget all that I went through and all that fell upon me. Sometimes I am lifeless and numb like a statue, sometimes I am so sensitive, vulnerable and soft that I simply cry and cry silently lying on my bed and silently tremble with unbearable pain, silently I hug myself and put myself to sleep.

Love is still a vague dream !

Touch my soul
Touch my life
With tangible love
Touch the untouched places
valleys and corners
Of my bare soul

Touch my loneliness
Touch my aching heart
Touch my ever flowing tears
Touch my wounds
With tender love

Love is still an alien thing
In my frozen world
Love has not reached
Love has not touched my life
Love has not embraced me
Love is still an intangible thing
Love is still just a vague dream

©Glorry Shubhashree

Only Dreams ..

Only dreams were the language
Of those eyes once ..now only the tears
This journey of dreams to ashes
Hopes to tears, and faith  to fear is
Indescribably painful.
May be that stream of tears has dried up visibly
But the emptiness left behind on its trail
In those hopeless, dry eyes
And this death of tears
Has made me instead a living corpse
A silent death is my life everyday .
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©Glorry Shubhashree

Mist Of Rain And Fog

Mist of Rain and Fog —

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The downpour of sky in this silent dead, night
Reverberates in the zephyr with melancholy.

A whiff of nostalgic aroma stuffs my breath
Splash of raindrops stream down
On the glass of window
Leaving their stresses behind
Screaming all night a silent cry.

Wintry chill along with this thunder peal
Synergize my heart’s clangorous shrill
I sit and wait here numb in a long night vigil
Watching this deem ray of candle
How it burns and smiles in silence
Still it’s last flicker in death.

A mist of rain and fog covers the earth
Making this dreadful night more eerie.

So dull and dark my world
Just like this murky night .

Tears of solitude rains through my eyes
I succumb to this pang of an endless waiting
Until all this pain and tears evaporate
To nothingness ,like a cloud free sky.

Just like this mist of rain and fog will
When the sun will kiss the ground
At the break of dawn.

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.©Glorry Shubhashree 🍁

Eternal Pain


The graceful water can not know
The pang of a burning bonfire
The birds in sky that voyage free
Can not know , can not think
The pain and songs of a standing tree.

The breathing body doesn’t know
The silent tears of its ghoulish shadow
The dust flies up and mixes with air
But doesn’t know the countless whiplash
The frictions ,and agitation of the ground
From which it’s really took birth.

The rainforest of flaura and fauna
With murmuring streams and lucid river
The exuberant life throbbing in every corner
Doesn’t know the curse and cry
The destitution and parchedness
Of a desolate, dry ,dying wasteland.

The horizon doesn’t know
The distance of East from West
Or the chasm between earth and heaven
Neither the sundering of day and night
The vast vaccum that fills them up.
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©Glorry Shubhashree